Here today....
So, I've been thinking lately, not that that's a surprise. I'm thinking of setting some goals and trying to stick to them. Among these goals is to get a degree, get a kick ass job, don't get me wrong, I can get a job, just not one that will pay well and what I would need to make it on my own. Just a thought....
Just a message.....
Well, normally I write something here when something is bothering me past the ability to speak. Unfortunatly, my mind seems to bring me back around to the same subjects, thoughts, actions,...almost like de ja vu. Sometimes I almost feel like I'm reliving the same things. Days just seem to be the same, I guess because it just seems like all I do is the same old same old. Apparently, I cannot give up the past. I'm not really sure how I can, because, to be honest, I really need to. I'm glad that I can actually say that. So I guess what I need to do, is start switching up my routine. If I can do that, maybe I can break out of this rut. I don't like to sound like I'm depressing, it just comes out that way. Sometimes I wonder, if things will change, and if they do, will they be for the better? Could be for the worse for all I know, or possibly not change at all. I'm just getting this wheel-spinning feeling again. I had this one time a long time ago when I wasn't sure where my life was heading and how I was going to get there. I guess I'm almost still there, except now I'm willing to accept the fact that things are moving forward and I can actually change things if I want to. So now it's not so much the whys, but the hows.
King of Crap...
So Michael Jacksons been aquitted of the charges put against him. Makes me wonder how many other pedephiles are going to use this case in their defense. "Well your honor, I didn't mean to be a pederass, but MJ did it, so I thought it was all good and well". Bear in mind that right now I may be a little drunk, as I have some time off so if I lose track, bear with me. Anyway, what has this country come to? Honestly, I gonna start sterilizing people and tell them it comes with a toaster or free set of ginzu knives to draw in numbers. If theres not a child getting fucked with , it's a child getting murdered. Like the the woman who left her kid in the basement because she was afraid the dog might eat him. Lo and behold, guess what, junior sandwich. It might very well be the greatest thing, her jack asss kid is dead , and she has to deal with that. Fantastic, congratulations, your now a vending machine for your dog.
Solitude....
I have to be honest, my parents have gone away on vacation and right now, I can't say I'm happy , but, I'm more somewhat at peace just enjoying the solitude. I know I haven't posted in a while, that's because, haha, I have a job again. I think I feel somewhat accomplished, not really, it's not my home in the sense that I purchased it but in the sense that it's my home. I come home from work and can relax, have a beer, play with my dog, whatever. It's great, I 'm actually starting to think that I very may well be ready for my own place. It's very nice to make the call on who comes over and when, what I eat, when I eat, what to do or just not to do altogther. It's very satiating. Now on to the thing you come here most for, the ranting.
Ok, now, I'm starting to think that when I get the oppurtunity to get out of the country, I'm going to take it. It's become apparent that Bush has turned the country into basically a jock. Some dickhead who is quite insecure of himself and therefore needs to lash out and fix other things to make himself feel better. And it's not just Bush. All policiticians, state, federal and local level do just that. I saw the news today, bad call for me but good for you. It seems that money has been appropriated for security of predominatly jewish locations, houses of worship, schools and the like. Now don't take it wrong, I like the jewish person, my buddys fiance is jewish and that's alright with me. The problem I see and maybe because the stories ran back to back, Ehrlic has appropriated monies to these places, but seems almost laxidasical when it comes to the victims of two year old hurricane isabel. Some people are still living in trailors, makeshift homes and the like, and I think more can be done to help these people. I can't do anything myself, I mean look at me, I got my own shit to deal with. But I think, and I can't say I know what kind of claut the govenor has on the fed level, but more can be done to get these people the money needed from insurance companies in order to restore some kind of piece of mind.
Back to a concept I've blabbed about before, celebrities. Another reason besides politicians to move out of the country, is celebrities. I enjoy the fact that Russel Crowe threw a phone. I also enjoy the fact that he apologized on live television broadcasted all over the country. One thing I don't enjoy is this gnome of an actor named Tom Cruise. There was a time when I enjoyed a good Cruise flick, Minority Report, Mission Impossible, and yes the second one (gotta stick with the kinfolk, go Woo!). But now it's getting to the point where he really should get smacked on the nose with a rolled up newspaper. Eh, what do I know I guess, if he wasn't fuckin up left and right, I wouldn't have anything to gripe about. Crap.
